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What Happens When We Dissociate?

How does Dissociation work? Is it okay to Dissociate? What happens during Dissociation? So many questions are posed toward the phenomena of trauma Dissociation.

The scientific process of Dissociation is a brilliant function of a human being’s DNA ability. There are many aspects which could be deeply examined in regards to the phenomena of Dissociation.

  1. Where does the DNA brain and body energy go when it leaves?
  2. Is the ability to Dissociate related to how much torture/pain a human can endure?
  3. Can Dissociation be controlled by the carrier?
  4. What happens during the Dissociative process?
  5. Why do some abuse victim’s Dissociate and not others?

In my memoir, CULT CHILD, I go into great detail about my Dissociative memories. These are real experiences which are extremely clear and prevalent in my memory. They have never changed. They have only been verified.

My Dissociation process as a child did not disappear, but instead, evolved as I became an adult. When I begin to feel my energy separate from my body, a myriad of physical signals happen first.

Sounds disappear. My body feels as though it is floating. My heart rate speeds up. I begin to see my current reality in third person perspective, as an outsider looking in. This happens in a matter of seconds. Then in a blink, I am elsewhere in my mind. I, personally, tend to travel to a dimension outside of my current realm.

Because I dissociated so much as a tortured child, it seemed like a natural and smooth transition to evolve the methods I used to transition, into my own meditative states. If my environment is right, I am able to push through the physically uncomfortable Dissociation transition to access differing sectors of my brain. Now, it is a willful and purposeful action.

The most pertitant element has been grounding to insure I am not left with aftermath; that I can come back to my present reality and be able to function at my own current level. Therefore, before using this technique I usually hold an object in my hand.

For me, there are now two types of “Dissociation”. One, emerged out of a childhood fear, fight/flight instinct, which I used as I was universally assisted through surviving cult inflicted torture.

The other would emerge as a flipping of those ritual tools, utilizing the survival abilities of my childhood abuse as newly assistive methods through which I now freely access the other dimension.

So, from my experiences, there is no set answer to the “What happens when you dissociate?” question. There are too many mitigating factors.

  • a human’s level of pain tolerance
  • a human’s mental strength
  • an abuse victim’s environment
  • an abuse victim’s DNA
  • the type of abuse enacted

For instance, my Dissociations found me continuously returning to the seventh realm, as I know it, while another abuse victim I am friends with jumps to a planet within this galaxy. Yet another abuse survivor I know remains on the ceiling, watching the full extent of their abuse. One element I observe in regards to the extent of an ability to control Disaociation seems to also include a human’s personal evolvement. The more evolved human deals with less fear, thereby being able to travel easier.

To answer how one dissociates would be to speak with every abuse victim who has used Dissociation to cope. While our experiences and circumstances are all differing, what we do have in common are the physical signs, as described above.

Possibly, when we master the skill of traveling, not in fearful Dissociation, but in an ability to focus, using Dissociative abilities to access the levels of our own existence, we have come to explore our memories from a place of empowerment.

This takes work. It has taken me years to evolve my methods. I am still evolving them as I am determined to access more of my mind’s caves. It takes being healthy so the body doesn’t fall ill. One must be able to be in a soothing environment to do this work. Because it is emotionally laborious, most Dissociation carriers avoid the exhaustive journey.

Yet, I say that if one chooses to face the layers of their own dissected childhood, that through the exhaustion, tears and haunting images, learning to stay grounded and traveling into Dissociation has been one of my strongest developments.

Vennie Kocsis is a 2016 Amazon best-selling author of CULT CHILD, a memoir detailing her abusive childhood in Sam Fife’s Move of God cult. She is currently writing the sequel, RISE OF SILA.

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Dear White People:

Dear Caucasian Friends,

We cannot let our government incite a race war in this country, so please stay with me for 6 short minutes

1. Accept you have white privilege. It’s okay to accept its existence. It doesn’t make you a bad person. It makes you intelligent and honest. Your skin color gives you privileges like not having someone clutch their purse in the elevator when you enter it or not being followed around stores because you’re black or not getting pulled you over for your skin color or hung from trees because of your skin color. Accepting this level of mind control white privilege based on your white skin color simply opens and frees your mind.

2. Stop minimizing #blacklivesmatter. You were not enslaved by the hundreds of thousands, tortured, raped, murdered, had your babies ripped from you and killed or forced to believe a religion that was not your original belief. So let go of the guilt because you aren’t entitled to feel it. Replace it with outrage that any human is ever abused and murdered for their skin color.

3. Do something. Stand beside our black brothers and sisters and use your voice. Attend your city hall meetings and ask why the black people in your community are being murdered, targeted and profiled. Black Americans need our white voices to speak. Your silence, or worse, defense of these atrocities, is the same as pulling the trigger, choking the life out of a black person and passively abusing them for their skin color.

4. Your white entitlement is hurting my family. Stop it. My heart is breaking every time I hear my youngest son say he is afraid to walk on his college campus or the surrounding city.

5. Do not comment on this post with arguments. They will not be responded to and promptly deleted. Take your white entitlement and scroll on past. Bite your cheeks against the need to argue because you can’t take the ancestral guilt of what is being done to our fellow black citizens. If you feel defensive right now, you are experiencing white privilege reactionary emotions.

6. Take the time to explore these presentations from a white man discussing white privilege so you can learn your own history properly. Educate yourself so we can be armed with the knowledge to end the onslaught against black people in our country.

The History of White Privilege

https://youtu.be/J3Xe1kX7Wsc

5 Things White People Should Do To Improve Race Relations

https://youtu.be/gNm4d5prXBY

Colorblind Denial and White Privilege

https://youtu.be/V13nqzefyoE

Thank you for caring. I know beneath the conditioning and traumatic generational DNA passed on from your white ancestors there is a heart for change, support and love. Let it out.

Sincerely,

The white mother of a multi-racial child who will only be seen as black because of your white privilege mindset.

#FreeYourMind
#BlackLivesMatter