About Vennie

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My name is Vennie Kocsis.  I am the author of Cult Child, a novelized memoir based on my life growing up a sexually, mentally and physically abused child in Sam Fife’s Move of God cult, which still exists today.

My publications, art and more can be explored at my website.

Click here to listen to interviews and read reviews.

Click here for my publications at Amazon.


My creativity is the therapy by which I have survived the memories of my childhood abuse. There are dark caves where the worst of my memories hide.  This is my Shadowland.   There are many  caves, and we intend to travel them all in this lifetime.

I identify Empath Hybrid and Highly Sensory.  I understand the journey through cult  recovery and returning to our original, authentic mind.  I am raw.  I am flawed.  I am vulnerable, and here without shame, to tell the true story of my own childhood.  I am writing out the effects that this trauma has left on my family and my own children.  I write to survive, and I write for those who cannot find the words to tell their own  story.


Some of the entries you will read if you follow this journal may contain descriptive accounts of sexual, physical, mental abuse, graphic dreams, and other possibly triggering subjects.  Please follow with caution.  I sometimes go long periods without posting or the floodgates open.  If you do decide to follow, stay on the raft, I’ll always be back.






  1. I am super excited to get my hands on this book as well as all the other goodies I have ordered. I too have suffered some trauma but not religious trauma. I can’t wait I wish you the best with your success ❤❤


  2. Hi Vennie:

    Just read your article on the Sam Fife – MKUltra connection. My mom was a victim of MKUltra and I am also aware of Sam Fife and his cult movement, having a few friends who share that history with you, thankfully also recovering from their experiences.. I had no idea of the connection between Fife & MKUltra and am very mortified and intrigued. With that said, in your mention of the cult “farm” property locations in Alaska, you don’t mention the farm that was briefly established on Lazy Mountain, outside of Palmer, I believe on property leased or purchased from what is now Wolverine Farm, in the late 70’s, early 80’s. It is now gone, with no trace of the buildings. Just wanted to mention that in case possibly you didn’t have that information. Thank you for your sharing, ministry and giving a voice to others.



    1. Hey Elizabeth. Palmer. Was there an airplane landing strip there? Was it near water for water planes to land? I’m wondering if I’m thinking of the same place. Known then as Palmer – or in our language, the Palmer compound. Am I on track. I didn’t know it had disappeared. Did the people disburse to other compounds? How interesting.

      Thank you for connecting and so openly sharing. We are all reuniting and the similarities in our stories are definitely a telling synchronization.


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